What to eat?

I've been thinking about this for the last couple of days. What is a person who wants to loose weight and likes to eat crap suppose to eat instead of crap? While I was at the chiropractor yesterday I heard him ask someone if they wanted to join him on a grain free diet for the next 30 days. I thought to myself I should try that, then I remembered the time I tried The South Beach Diet a few years back. After four days I wanted to go on a murdering rampage for a small slice of bread or maybe a cracker. So I thought that's probably not for me. Then I thought I'll just cut out foods that are made with grains, but not dairy and not other starchy foods like potatoes or peas. That shouldn't be too hard. Well I got up this morning, had a cup of coffee (by the way I will NEVER give up my morning coffee without a fight) then decided to eat some breakfast. My first thought was cereal... oh, wait, that's made of grains and sugars, so I had a couple of scrambled eggs. Then I got to thinking, I can't have scrambled eggs every day, ugh. What am I suppose to eat besides that? In comes google. I googled best grain free breakfast foods. Let me tell you most of what I saw made me want to hurl skyward. A breakfast burrito mad with an egg tortilla? How am I suppose to pick that up without it falling apart? Biscuits made with almond flour? I've never heard of almond flour. I wouldn't even begin to know where to look for it much less how to cook with it. Then I had a bright idea. I will just cut out the processed grains and just stick to whole grains. I like oatmeal. I was turned onto Dave's Killer Bread, I like that. Problem solved... well except for the processed foods that still exist in this house. And then there is pasta. Now I've tried the whole wheat pasta and it's like eating sand. I would rather jump on a pitchfork than eat spaghetti made with that. That is another problem I'll have to figure out. How to live without pasta. I'm not sure that can happen.
Of course I can always substitute things with fresh fruits and veggies. Well I don't know if you are aware of this, but the fresh fruits and veggies in the grocery store taste like (pardon my language) shit. I've been researching organic foods and discovered CSA, Community Supported Agriculture. What a great idea. I found a little farm up in Ridgefield that fits in my budget so I'm going to try them out. The problem with that is I have to pay for the season up front and wait until spring before I get anything. What am I suppose to do in the mean time? I guess I'll just have to eat the grocery store cardboard that they try to pass off as food.
Meat. I live in a house of carnivores who love eating meat. I like it, but I don't feel I need to eat it every day. If my husband goes a day without meat he may get violent and if my son cannot have his burger fix he will surely go mad. So I'm stuck buying meat. Mostly red meat and a lot of it. Well a few weeks back I saw a movie called Food Inc. If you like what you're eating now and you don't want to change, DON'T watch this movie. It is truly horrifying what has become of our food system. Corporate greed is killing us in more ways than one. Grass fed beef is the way to go. The problem is where the heck do you find the stuff? In comes google again. I found a farm up in Battle Ground that looks great. Of course there is a problem, they are sold out until June 2012. Nice. Another problem, I'm going to have to buy at least a quarter of a cow. Have you seen how big a cow is? Where on earth am I going to put a quarter of one? I guess I'll need a bigger freezer or I'll have to have a really big BBQ. At any rate the quest for healthy eating and weight loss is going to be difficult and expensive. Ugh.

Today I'm going shopping

Well I hate to say it, but yesterday was a bust. I really didn't snack on crap (mostly because I've had enough over the holiday and I had a tummy ache due to overindulgence on Christmas day), but my husband called during the day and asked me that dreaded question "What's for dinner?" I told him "I don't know" Well being the man that he is, also the fact that he knows me really well, he stopped by McDonald's on the way home so he wouldn't starve to death because his wife was hung over and didn't want to cook. Oh joy! He got me a Big Mac, fries and a Coke. Just what I needed. Well thankfully due to my tummy ache I couldn't eat it all. I need to drill that in my head despite what my mother drilled into mine, I DON'T NEED TO CLEAN MY PLATE. As soon as I figure that out I should do better.
Today I am feeling better so I'm going to tackle the grocery store, mostly because we are almost out of toilet paper. My husband called this morning to make sure I was going to go and he told me "I want Eggo Waffles and white bread!" What else is there to eat? Well I could buy the frozen waffles, which I highly doubt resembles real food, or I could make waffles and freeze them. This I've done before and I don't understand why, but they just sit in the freezer forever. They taste better than the frozen boxed kind, they look better, I don't get it. Maybe it's the box, or maybe he just has a taste for processed garbage, or both. Anyway I will cave into his waffle demand only so I don't have to listen to him whine about having nothing for breakfast. But soon he will have to give them up or they will eventually lead to his demise. I don't eat them. I don't have a problem with foods like that. I just have a problem with sweets.
There is a carton of ice cream in the freezer. French vanilla. I love that stuff. I bought it to take with us on Christmas, but forgot to put it in the cooler (subconsciously I wanted it all for myself). Now it's here, in my freezer, slowly whispering my name. I need to find something to do with it. Maybe my son will eat it. He's young, he'll burn it off. I'll tell him he can eat the whole thing! Maybe it can accidentally fall into the trash, oh but that would be a mortal sin. Wasting ice cream is unthinkable. I will just have to put it in the back of the freezer or the freezer in the garage. That's a better idea. The garage is down stairs. I hate stairs so it will be harder for me to get to it. Maybe I wont hear the whispers anymore either. The left over apple pie is whispering to me too. So is the cookie tin. I will have to leave the house today and not come back until dark. That may be the only way.
If only I had a job that was out of my house. Working at home makes it just too easy to take a break and head straight for the fridge. Is there anyone out there looking to hire? I'm a photographer by trade, but I'll do anything... anyone? Please? Well I guess I should get off my ass now and prepare for the grocery trip. I shall return with frozen waffles in hand and maybe a few other things that are less processed. Wish me luck!

A Place To Start

I guess this is as good a day as any to start a (omg shall I say it?) diet. It's the day after Christmas 2011 and as I sit here at my computer with a hangover I thought I really need to do something about my weight. Of course this isn't a new thought. I've been struggling with this my whole life. My husband calls me a yo-yo. I've been to Jenny Craig, Weight Watchers, I have apps on my phone like Lose It. All of which work, as long as you put your mind to it and stick with it. That's where I go wrong. The stick with it part. You see, I have a small problem, I LOVE TO EAT! And I love to eat crap. Who doesn't? I love potato chip and ice cream and cookies, you name it. If it's bad for you I want it. Oh and booze I love that too. Red wine is my drug of choice at the moment, well not this very moment because it's 10:40am, this moment in my life that is. I just love to have a couple of glasses in the evening. Because I'm such a freak and I've been on the weight loss journey more than once, I've developed a few habits like measuring. I measure my wine. I have a measuring cup that is designated for that purpose. 5 oz in each glass and no more. Now if I could do that with everything.
I've decided to make this particular journey public because I've heard over and over to not diet alone. Well this is about as un alone as one can get, well unless no one is reading this, then I am alone. At any rate here I am.
I'll start off by saying what I weigh. Do I dare? I stepped on the scale this morning and it read 167. Now that was after breakfast and some coffee and water. I also had my jammies on. It's close enough. I should probably give out my height and age. I am 5 feet 1 inch tall. The last time I went to the Dr. they measured me and said I was 5 feet 1/2 inch. I told them that they were wrong. I am 48 years old. They say the older you get the harder it is to loose weight. Well it's always been hard for me. Some people seem to be able to cut back on what they eat and their weight seems to just fall off. Ha, not me. I'm lucky if I loose 1/2 pound a week eating 1000 calories a day. That is like starving. Ugh. My goal is to get down to about 120 give or take. I would like to do this by the time I'm 50. That gives me a little over a year (my birthday is in March). I think that is a manageable goal. At least I hope it is. A year does go by quick. Quicker than it used to.
Now the decision is what kind of diet to do. I certainly don't want to go back to Weight Watchers because I'm a wallet watcher for one and I'm just not up for the meetings every week. I hate things like that. It makes me want to go out back and find the nearest tree to hang from. Maybe I should just start by trying not to eat crap. Cutting back on stuff and just trying to find what works for me. I'm considering buying a book called The Flex Diet. I'm just not sure I want to fork over the cash (I am a cheapskate). The book is $11.99 on my iPad. It does have some good reviews. It's probably just common sense. Maybe I'll buy it. If I do I'll let you know.
Well I guess I'll end here for now. Hopefully I'll be back soon and with good news from the scale (ha). Or I'll be back in tears. At any rate I'll talk to you soon.